why is my heart still bleeding?

yesterday went shopping with mommy
damn satisfied and yet happy
cause I shop till I drop (:
and once I reached ou shopping centre


first thing I do
I walked like a mad puppy
all the way straight from carpark centre
and waste my beautifull strength to meet up with Nat
ah...it feel so gud and blessed to see her again
my beloved sis (:

what did we do at mph bookstore?
I noe bookstore can be really a bored to death
but what we did is some seriously crazy chats
and we even call "him"hehehehehe
but who knows......what the heck....
"him" gonna eat dinner for one hour =="

roflmao...eat dinner so long siah
then only Nat my sis told me
"he" watch and played with his food while eating O.O
then Nat sis also warn me...dun sms him during dinner time

and while chatting with my dearest sis
I spotted a cooking recipe book
Cupcakes (: my love (:
and together we both like pretending to walk around
busy looking for books and magazines....but too bad
I forgot to bring my camera,cant cam-whore ):

anywaix boy oh boy
man I can still feel the blood flooding in my heart
its so pain.....its like truck loads of needle just poke in...
I still feel sorry and guiltyness inside.....
hope you are not upset with me or whatever is it
please Im begging you,stay strong and be happy



I love you.......
I miss you.......
from the bottom of my heart............
loving you always.........