I got what I want and I want more (:

Finally on 22September
I have officially bought my blackberry curve
and its in white in colour (:

It cost me like RM1066.00
and I havent buy a memory card and some few rubber cover coloured
but nvm sooner and later I will pampered my blackberry like a precious baby (:

After September will be changing to postpaid soon
thought that after buying the blackberry than I can straight use the bbm
and who knows I need a line -_____-

Next week he'll be starting work again
which makes my heart feel lame and sored out
but I dont care right now much bout him cause Im falling for another dude
right now just need to wait for him to finish his SPM trials patiently (:

And as for another hell of bets with my friends
I keep betting with them and crossed m finger
he WONT SMS or even asked me out after his Trials
but most of my girlfriends keep saying for sure he will
oh well let my BETS begin (: winner and lossing
Im not afraid at all (:

Iphone 4 is out! Oh meee gosh
dying hard to get it! but not from maxis please
it'll be from Digi since its already launch at Digi already yesterday
Blackberry for me its not enough,Iphone4
both doess sounds fullfilling to me :D

Thats all for now
time to wait for my mr guy to finish exams
toodles (:

I wont give a damn what people say

SERIOUSLY AND SERIOUSLY!
WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON NOW A DAYS?!

Sigh Im damn fucking pissed off
thats what much I can say alright
I wanna scream and yell but I cant
promised myself and not just for him that I'll be happy
if not when upset he'll have to suffer for me too ):
sorry honey bee i know you are my friend but......*speechless*

First and for all to my one of the most rude girl
you are this year same age with me 20years old
but hell look at you and it was a real shame being your friend
honestly speaking I dont know why would we be THAT CLOSE in the first?
maybe its because I was desperate much for another best friend?
when all my others gangs and close one are at over seas?

Ever since after the fight and arguement for some small matter
you start calling me a bitch and a slut just because Im from private school
and you start calling me names and came insult in my fb post when I bitched bout ppl
so what thats gonna do with you?its not your business bitch! its mine business
nobody asked you to masuk and campur tangan tao tak?

And secondly I did not act like a bitch at your party
if you think Im acting like one,so what are you preety much jealous now? (:
Lemme tell you Im not afraid to admit that I been used to or what
I dont neeed you to judge or to tell me if Im a bitch
because you dont treat me nice as a normal friend so whats the point?
so BACK OFF SKINNY BONE GIRL!
YOU AINT GOT NOTHING TO TELL ME WHAT TO DO

Secondly Im sooooooooooooo confused and upset a bit
why cant everyone gimme a peacefull moment to like and love for a guy?
dear bro I know I have to get to know this malay dude
hes awesome,fun and friendly and a good listener kkay?
you dont anything soooooo say NO SHIT OR JUDGE A PERSON
I sincerely hate that when you all start gossiping
come on you all are grown ups and so are me
Im not your trully Lil Princess anymore kkay?


my four brotheres and oh please
respect me for now and forever
what ever stuff I wanna do or so
I dont need to consult you guys or any advice from any of you
you guys are uselesss and oh wellll,i cant believe im bitching bout you all

thirdly to all my friends
respect me for who I wanna be with and so on
if you cant respect me for the guy that I wanna be with
its your problem and its not mine,make things worse?
you get it from me straight from my face



Last and for all
call me a Bitch? or Misjudge me?
I TRULLY and EVER wont give a damn bout it!
cause you aint know me well,so say no shit.

learn to be happy not be sad, lesson learned

now I have learned my mistakes and know I've just realized
being UNHAPPY and CRYING doesnt make he/she feel good
believed me crying will only make you feel the pain most of the time
and so those being unhappy most of the time

Get straight to it,whats the point for being unhappy?
or being jealous of what you dont have or so?
well now I realized being jealous of my 5 other friends is completley waste of time
why say so? I do envy them for being preety and all those
I always wished Im one part of them being crazy,preety,fun and everything
but now I found my own key of happyness thanks to a guest whom I met

You see people on monday i was really about to blow up
but I manage to serve everybody with a smile (:
with no troubles at all,I wonder if i blowed up in front of my staff
I would probably scare away all my guest and make a fool of myself

a big thanks to Mr Fawwaz
well hes my junior 3years younger me and I never expect he'll make a gud listener
well hes been manage to cheer me up for 2days,Im emo well because of work
and now I feel a lot better and I know for one thing Jealousy is bad for health

and I would like to make a word out there
I may be a unique and diffrent type of eurasian girl you people have met
but mind your bloody mouths and bad mouth rumoring
Im not perfect in anyway and I dont give a damn of what you think and what you say
If you guys are here at earth just to bring me down or give me a bitchy face?
sorry people,I dont give a damn bout it anymore

This is me and this how Im gonna survife and live on
I dont care how much bad mouth and bad rumor bout me
I assumed you are just wasting your breath of time
To Live,Laugh and cherish all my lucky moments,Im not regretfull for this
I've made the right choice to be happy again and say no shit

You make me feel like I wanna hate you
thats just me,cus once you start bad mouthing you are goin down
so Im just gonna start with a smile to laugh away of it (:

Hate my life,wish I was dead

I really sincerely hate my life a lot
I would never find a damn happyness ever in my life
even though I've found a job at 1u Italianies so what?!
everyday also been through this shit and hell from my mom

My pay cheque is my money so say no shit
What i wanna use or spend or whatever hell of it is
its not your problem to care or whatever hell of it
Which guy I should be with or which friend I should mix with
please dont make decision for me,cus it depends on me and the guy

Now I dont completely feel like a 21year old adul
I have to go through every hell of it
its pain and deep inside in my heart and its bleeding
my own mom always treat me like that since i was young
I really cant communicate with my own mom very well

I dont wanna blog bout it
makes me feel like wanna die right now
keeps makes rules for it
and never ever treat me nice at all
I meant it and I know it